I am sad... well... it's really deeper than sad... lower than sad...

This movie is showing today! I can't watch it because I have my Physiology class til 10 PM...ah bummer!... I'm just gonna see it on Saturday together with the rest of the church members...I didn't recognize that the one who played Jesus in this movie is the one who played as The Count of MonteCristo (btw, one of my favorites!) ...interesting....maybe he really look so good with all those facial hair and stuff huh?

Oh gosh!!!!!! I am definitely procrastinating!!!!!!!! I have no time to read my book so I'm just gonna use the internet to answer my laboratory exercise which is due tomorrow!.... I asked for a day off this Wednesday hoping I have enough time to study but my boss said that I need to attend a meeting!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I'm happy though coz when I applied for the federal financial aid, I am now considered as an independent student!... the benefit of getting older! Although I've been claiming for the past 3 years that I'm independent, I am still considered as dependent coz I haven't turned 23... This is a good news! I will have more money from the government to provide for my school finances.. as long as I maintain my enrolled units to a full time and also my GPA.... whoohoo!!!!!!

I better start off with my educational plan as I wait for nursing school..... this is hard! but I better get goin to make my waiting time efficient! God help me!

I can't wait to see Passion of the Christ ... EVeryone here in Daygo has been talking about this movie... so controversial that even people who let's just say are not that religious in some sort are so intrigued that they also want to see the movie for themselves... I'm pretty sure it will move a lot of people... I can't believe I had goosebumps last Sunday when they showed the preview at church...

Enough of my never ending stories and thoughts...... I need to start doing my homework!
Gracias!

* chatting with Lowlah Jary while blogging*

Today is the birthdays of three human beings so dear to me! :)
My high school bestriend Jen, my FEU bestfriend Nainah, and the most kind uncle in the wrold, Uncle Ron!!! Happy Birthday!!!!

I'm so tired from work that I didn't get the chance to glance through my notes before class.... good thing that my professor re-scheduled the test....

My nursing school is still blocking my mind... I need to think of alternative classes I can take while waiting ( I hope I won't wait that long though)...

It's raining!!!!!!!

I have plenty of stuff to finish by tomorrow.. and I just don't know where to start.... I have more time bothering my mom while she do the laundry while my bed is full of paperworks needed to be finished! Ah! I'm slacking off again!

Ok fine!... I need to get goin!....

There has been so much stress for me this week... but hey! I'm just want to feel good and not worry too much about it...

I'm so happy to talk to my aunt when we had our lunch date along with the rest of the church's ladies... I had the guts to ask her about the secret recipe on her grilled salmon!!!!!! Yey!!! it was so easy!...I hope I can make it as good as hers... she told me she's gonna cook some for tomorrow's meeting!!! SALMON!!! I love it soooooo much! My mom even makes fun of me as I go crazy with this fish...

We also distributed door hangers around the neighborhood about the upcoming movie The Passion of Christ...so at least I did my church duties plus I get to have a more than a 5 mile walk which is healthy!

As I mentioned earlier, we had lunch date at Mimi's Cafe and I was able to chat with the church members who were working as nurses.... gain some pointers and learn so much from it!... the main thing was I heard stuff about this special someone.. of course it came from his sisters....Hahaha!!! I can't believe what I heard... he's a total dork! Oh yeah...you heard it right! he's a dork! it doesn't matter to me though... who cares anyway.... I LIKE HIM the way he is! and besides, I'm a dork though in many ways! :p

I still have 5 applications to finish regarding nursing school.... and I've been thinking a lot of working as a CNA.... I might go ahead and work as a part time CNA so I can be used to it then who knows.... maybe I'll like it then I can get the heck oout of McDonalds....Let's see what might happen.....

We rented DVD's Captain Barbel and Brokedown Palace... I enjoyed the latter....I haven't heard about this film and my brother just grabbed it from the $1 shelf....it was good... it starred Claire Danes and Kate Beckinsale (sheesh is this the right spelling????)

Good night!

I won't be getting my car tomorrow as expected :( ... The maintainance man called and he said he's making sure that everything is alright before he releases my car...
I felt so lame without my car... this is such a neccessity...

I already filed my ITR and yey! I'll be getting some of my tax back! ohhh $$$.....

I printed out some applications for all the colleges offering AS in Nursing...come what may!

Got a bad news today... not an actual bad news but I consider it a bad one.. huh??? a little confusing eh!
Well, I received a call from School of Nursing at San Diego State University about my transcripts from the Philippines... I told them that I'll be turning it in by the end of this month.... and then she also stated that I need my 60 hours of paid or volunteer work in a healthcare setting... I said that I had my clinicals from my CNA from last two months and its more than 300 hours of hands on nurse assisting! Guess what? They wanted the ones from a facility wherein I am working paid or unpaid and not in a school setting, which is my CNA class from last sem...What the heck!!!!!!!!!!!!! She said that I need to confirm all my hours by June, meaning I need to work as a CNA!!!!!!
I am so not in the mood when I heard about this....I went online and check out for the rest of the schools here in Daygo offering at least an Associate in Nursing... Aarghhhhhh... my printer is not working! so I wasn't able to print out all the application form!!! and then, I have to get more copies of my transcript in the Philippines which is IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!!!! because of their stupid rules and regulations on the very , VERYYYY vERRYYYYY limited copy of trancript you can get!!!!!!!!
I don't know what to do now!!!!!!!! I felt so miserable! I just wish that I should have been here in the US earlier than 2000 so at least I finished high school here and there's no more questions to ask! I can apply to all Universities without having this kind of dilemma which can crack my head into pieces!
All I ever dream is to finish school, get my Masters and then my Phd... I have the enthusiasm in spending time to study! I can enroll for more than 12 units and still get all A's and B's but why me?????? There were lots of students out there who don't even give a d@mn if they fail or pass a class, they have parents who are willing to support them financially!!! and take note, they don't even have to get a job to support their schooling..... I can't believe that this is so happening to me! did I do something wrong??? did a choose a career in which I don't deserve to have???? this is my passion... this is all I wanted to do even when I was little girl! I am so tired of waiting....or am I just waiting for nothing????? Everything is just messed up.... I just wanna go back time and start all over but living this life is not like that.....it's not easy, too! this is a humongous obstacle blocking my way to my success...
Arrghhhhhhhh.......... I just wanna scream from the top of my lungs!

Where do I go from here???????

Good Morning!!!!!

It's so warm today! is spring over???? I have no idea at all...
I wonder how much will I get after I file my Income Tax Return... Anybody knows where to get Philippine passports renewed????? We're kinda planning to renew it just in case we decided to go for a visit this year... it's my parent's 25th Wedding Anniversary.... *sigh* enough of the plans already....I just don't wanna feel bad no more....

I've been thinking of switching to T-Mobile for my wireless service... their text messaging only costs $0.05 compared to Cingular that charges me $0.10 for outgoing and incoming texts... besides, they have this really cool fones...hmmm...*taps fingers on the table*

Golly! I fogot that I'm gonna apply for scholarship at McDonalds.com... laterz!

Happy President's Day

I'm not supposed to work today... I thought I'll have all the sleep I need but around 7 AM... my boss called and they need me at the store at 8... so what the heck! I went to work!

At last!!!!!!! I've been planning to answer all the letters I received since Christmas and last night I was able to reply on all of them! *pat on the back* way to go! that was 6 letters! and I have to use my bare hands of course so it is more personalized!... Emails are cool but sometimes I'd rather read handwritten letters than emails ( if it's from someone really special and dear to me is an exception though :P)... it's the thought of taking time to write a 4 page letter (front and back) makes it all worth reading! I feel so excited everytime I receive snail mails..... it makes me think I'm special! so in return, I have to do the same... It doesnt' bother me if it'll take hours to finish one letter....

That's it for today... I am doing our laundry and some ironing too later!

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few more days! I'll get my car back!!!! whoohoo!

My boss insisted that I attend the class tomorrow!..after our vey long argument of whether I am going or not, I won! I told her the truth! so she just said that there's still next time and she'll be happy if I will attend it....

So there...what a relief!

I need to follow up with my nursing program...and I better start my planning now if I'll continue to apply at SDSU or just go for associate at Maric College...whichever comes first then I'll be happy to accept it!

A really funny thing happen today, this entry was supposed to be in the other blog but since it's funny, why not just post it here...Oh I changed my mind.. I'm not gonna tell... just keep it to myself! something about my dear EYECANDY...it's not sweet nor sour! it's hilarious! *giggles*

Goodnight!

We went to the church's Valentine Banquet...We had good food! and to think that grilled salmon is one of the main dishes!!!!! Yummy!!!!!

It was held at Holiday Inn Hotel downtown.. it's location is overlooking the city... romantic huh? but too bad I don't have a date....kinda sad coz most people who attended were couples...but that's alright...hahaha!!! I sounded so pathetic.....:p

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

I wrote my boss a letter ragarding my decision that I'm not gonna attend the class on Monday....
I was thinking about it last night, and it 's just too overwhelming for me!.... I told her the truth that I can't promise I can devote 40 hours a week starting next month...I have to focus more on my studies than work....oh well... I don't want to call her because am having a hard time to say "NO"... It's on issue of mine and I am really working on how I can say NO without hurting someone's feelings.... let's just see what will happen next..

I had the most amazing dream last night!

When we went to therapy, I had the best massage ever! oh... it felt sooooooooo gooooodddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my chiroprator used this "stone" kinda thing and mahn! it cracks my bones in a good and pleasant way! hahaha! I'm just kidding, she didn't cracked any of my bones! It's so undescribable!

I didn't know that I have this cute Filipino classmate on my Physiology... he's some sort of gangsta though... he had piercings on his face and he talks like a Black American... in fairness, I seldom see cute Filipinos here... :p
He told us that if ever we'll be going to apply for nursing school, to get our BSN, never tell that we are Filipinos...I think it has something to do with Filipinos taking over Nursing field! He's funny... I dunno if he's joking but he said he got all A's on all his prerequisites so far... oh well...
I was able to make a lot of chitchats today coz our Physio professor didn't show up! and to think that today is my lab day!... but according to the message she left, she's not gonna let us make up for it... which is a good thing... but then, it's Holiday on Monday and we missed one lecture...which is a bad thing coz we have to cram to be able to make up coz it'll all be part of our first test...
I dunno if I post this already... but did I mention that ER on TV has some Filipina casts??? Yep...the nurses were Filipinos! I watched it I think two weeks ago and you can hear them speak Tagalog! They did mention that they're eating dinuguan on their lunch break! and one of the main character, one of the doctors ( he's the one who played O in the movie "O"> asked what kind of food it was....there was also this part where this same doctor asked one of the Filipina nurses if she knows how to speak Tagalog! coz she keeps on answering "Yes , doctor!" and that's it! hahahaha!!!! I can't stop giggling! which makes me remember of the movie we watched with my dear froggy buddy, THE DEBUT!

*sigh* I'm so tired but this day is just so amazing! I dunno why, but I feel that it is!
Laterz!

I went to Berean Christian Bookstore last night and I was able to buy two CD's... I have a month to practice one and I've chosen I Desire by Natalie Grant...
I was also intrigued to the title of this book found in the Love and Courtship section, IF MEN ARE LIKE BUSES, then How do I Catch One? .. Hahaha! I bought it! I still haven't finish reading two SINGLES books that were given to me last Christmas and I am now starting to read a new one...*bonks self* I can't find the time to read my textbook but I have this time to browse through books like the one I just bought...
Oh well, at least I'm happy! coz all I have to do is buy another bookcase exclusively for my SINGLES books!!!! Anybody wants to borrow??? let me know! :p

I still got a back awie! I had this almost everyday since I started my therapy!
I talked to a private investigator this afternoon and he'll be the one to give my case to an attorney... their pay will be 1/3 of all the settlements ( i dunno if that's the right term)... I'll know tomorrow or the next day what the plans are... All I wish is to have money so I could buy a plane ticket to the Philippines!

it's 7:03 and I haven't started doing my lab report for tomorrow's class!
Babushka!

I'm uploading pics while posting my entry for today...
My back hurts!!!!

Can't post no more... I need to study Physiology!

Hello... how's ur day goin so far???

I just got home from work...I went online to check on my emails and I'm gonna upload some pics on my picturetrail after I get back from school...
I talked to my boss and I guess there's no turning back... my assistant class will start next week and she's training me to do payroll and month end reports... this is not really my thing....as you know, I hate numbers/MATH!...

Oh well, it's 3:30 and I need to get ready for school! laterz!

I had fun at the church today!... I had 8 students and one newbie named Alex....I love this ministry of mine so much... I am starting to get back on track with all my duties at church...I used to give a song number at least once a month and that was a year ago and I pray that I can start doing the same thing starting March onwards....I realized that being busy with school is not an excuse why I can't do the things I used to do...

Alright, I need to study now...I haven't open my book over this weekend... and I need to do some advance readings, too!

Nyt!

We've seen RADIO last night starring Cuba Gooding Jr... It was a tear-jerker! but I love it!!!! it was so heart-warming... and he portrayed the role well... We also rented the movie THE FIGHTING TEMPTATIONS, which I find boring... seems like they have have the same plot as SISTER ACT of Whoopi Goldberg...

My brother and I had our 2nd therapy session... I had some sort of massaging heating pad for 30 minutes...it feels..... then we went to work afterwards...
I was also able to find a lawyer that can help us with our case....

Then I went to buy snacks for the Sunday School tomorrow... my dear little angels! I will be teaching them about Barthomeus....

I got an email from my friend that she's working with my former puppy love! hahahaha!!!! opppssssss flashbacks...flashbacks....flashbacks I remember that I had a crush on him for 5 years!!!! oh yes! I was sooo into him!... from 1st year high school til the 1st semester of college!... He's the star player of the highschool's basketball team and he's very good in chess, volleyball, and table tennis... he plays saxophone which I still remember the first song I heard him play at school... Unchained Melody...he also plays the piano!
I was in first year highschool and he was in 4th year when I first laid my eyes on him... Hahaha!!! I was so young then and I can't even stare directly to his eyes nor talk to him. Then in 1998, when I was freshman in FEU...I heard that he already had a girlfriend and you know what her name is....ABIGAIL.... From that moment, I said to myself.... I need to get this feelings over with and that's the end of the story! hahaha! sounded so mushy!.... I can't help but giggle when I heard that he was so interested to contact me...too bad.. he missed his chance! hahahaha!!! I think I just need a good night sleep.... :p

Nyt!

Sheesh... guess what????
I spent my whole 8 hours at work by being the mediator between the other manager and the crew.... I felt like I'm a babysitter!

I've got an email from one of my bestfriends and she told that I have two goddaughters... Actually, I'm an instant godmother!... I didn't even heard that I'm invited to their christening! oh well... I have a godson and I think goddaughters will be great!
Imagine that....some of my highschool pals have families already!!!!...and I don't even have one baby!!!! hahahahaha!!!!! I'm just kidding... someone might read this and offer a couple of their swimmers!!! :p hahahahha!!!!

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I missed the tonight's new episode of FRIENDS....
Anyways, good thing my aunt called me earlier today, had a ride home from work....And also, the repair shopped called and gave me the estimate on how much they'll be spending to fix my car.... it's around $5000...and hopefully, it'll be returned to me on the 20th....I'll cross my fingers to that!
My aunt just came from Iraq and she shared plenty of stories on how hard it was...Good thing she was home safe and sound with ten fingers and ten toes....
We went to CLAIM JUMPERS with my brother and my uncle's family for dinner...We had our usual order of buffalo wings and spinach dip with an order of Asian salad...the waitress told us that all we ordered was appetizers and no main dish! too bad, that's all we want...
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There's too much paperwork! I mean with the insurance...arrgghh....to much hassle!
And I am not really feeling better right now.....my back, my neck is hurting... seems like I'll be having a fever... I can't be sick... I need to work...pay my bills!
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Sometimes, I think I need to shut up...I won't tell my Lola that I am so into my Eyecandy....she's been telling my aunt and my uncle and I just feel so embarassed eveytime they open the topic... Good thing my brother backed me up at dinner tonight...I wanted to disappear when they start talking bout me! Aaargh.... This is my personal life and I am very particular when it comes to it...sheesh...
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Bout my work, my boss confirmed to me that I'll be taking her place when she goes on vacation.... I'll be attending meetings and I'll be in charge of the whole store! I was telling her that I'm not so sure about it.... and she said that the supervisor insisted that I should be the one to run the store!...He wants me to do it! I am afraid coz they might expect too much from me and then fail them...I hate that!
What should I do?????

I woke up with a stiff neck... then I went to my chiropractor...she asked me plenty of questions and then started the therapy....afterwards, I can't move my neck no more!! I was supposed to go to work after the session but I can barely move my head...Arrghh... My dad was so mad... and I don't wanna go to the urgent care either so I stayed home and do my own version of treatment... I put a hot compress on the area... and took the anti inflammatory medicine prescribed by my doctor...I insisted to go to school because I don't wanna miss a class ( this only shows that I am such a DORK)....Don't worry, I think the pain is starting to subside....
My brother and I will have our therapy thrice a week and I have no idea when it's gonna end...BTW, my chiro also told me to get a lawyer... oh well...

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I've been going through a rough road right now....I hope I can make it til the end...

I'm done with all the laundry! and hey! I did the ironing, too!!! but sheesh... I'm so tired....I need to get the medicine by tomorrow... I can't go to work like this...

Good thing the police report was released to my insurance agent... She told me that the young lady ran a red light. I felt so sorry for her, she's too young to be experiencing this kind of stuff... I really have no idea what will happen to her but mahn! she's in big trouble now...Some of the people I talk to is trying to convince me to sue her and get more money.... I will not gonna do that... I think it's fair that she suffers the consequences of what she had done....

As of now, I still have no idea how this will work.... my main focus as of this moment is to have my car repaired ASAP.... My insurance doesn't cover car rental... I think our agent forgot to mention that to us when we applied for our coverage... I went and asked several rent-a-cars in our area and its average cost is $175 a week....it's too much!.... add a few more dollars and I'll have the monthly payment for my car! Oh well...patience, patience, patience..... Patience is a virtue.....hahaha

Good night! gotta take a rest...... and be ready for my chiropractic session tomorrow!

I'm doing the laundry right now... eventhough my back is killing me! aarrgghh

YES! I got in, in Physiology!...There were more crashers than the ones who were registered....and hey waitlisters were not even included yet....this only proves that most majors have something to do with healthcare... I chatted with some of my seatmates ( see, how talkative I am.. hahaha) , and most of them were nursing majors and the other one is going in PA school... This is gonna be a very tough class... very competitive...

Also, I spent $$$ again on my books... good thing I have my financial aid which helped a bit... I didn't have to pay for my tuition fees and I only pay $20 for parking permit instead of the regular $35 ....

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I am trying to keep a positive atmosphere at home... my dad and my mom had a little argument last Sunday.... when you know what the cause of the misunderstanding, it'll make you think that they're like kids... making a big deal out of something really really small. It'll take several weeks for my car to be fixed so we only have one car that can be used for now... and it's hard...we have to make huge adjustments with regards to our schedules.... The family's patience is going downhill so fast.... They do drive me insane! but I need to stay on the bright side to be the mediator and shock absorber! I have plenty of stuff to do and I won't waste my time babysitting them.... I will do my best to make things work for our own benefit.....
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My brother and I went to the doctor today, and she prescribed some sort of muscle relaxant... I have no plans of buying it eventhough the insurance sompany will be the one to take care of it...instead, we'll just gonna set an appointment for physical therapy...errr..... I'm not sure if it's for PT or for a chiropractor...oh well... she said it's the same....
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I found out that my medical insurance is ripping me off!!!....I mean it's just too much.... and I'm not getting a very good deal!.....I felt so sorry for myself coz I'm left with no choice....I'm already 23 and my father can't cover me with his insurance.... and my work doesn't offer any insurance at all coz I don't work full time... I really need to finish school so I could get a decent job with decent health benefits....Oh man...
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Thanks to blogger, this is my outlet when I feel that I am carrying the world's problem on my shoulders......
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I thank God for all His blessings.....I'm sure that He won't give me trials that I can't handle....I thank you, too because You kept me safe while driving...

Good morning!!!!!!!!!!
First day of school!!!! Ha! I went online to check the status of my waitlist and I was so happy to see that from the 4th, I went up to the 2nd...
Please help me God! it's a night class... and I'll be going home around 10...Keep me safe....

I did a very silly thing today while waiting at the church's office....Hahaha!!!! I can't believe I had the gutts to do it but I did....I'm not gonna tell what the heck it was but for sure it satisfied my fondest dreams!!!! :p

Adam Vinatieri's winning kick!!!!! It was a very very tight game!!!!! But someone gotta win... the Patriots won by 3 points...

It's SUPER BOWL SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!
I am not really a football fan but I am rooting for the New England Patriots!!!!